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Today’s my mom’s birthday and I’m so grateful that she is still with me. She’s the tiniest force. I was so happy. But. I made myself finally listen to Elijah McClain’s last moments here with us and all I can think of is that he begged those monsters for forgiveness. I am heartbroken.

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I got to hang out with my wonderful, hilarious, fucking irreplaceable family in a way that was safe and distanced. I love them.

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I cooked myself a really yummy dinner. I sat at the kitchen table alone and enjoyed it. I surrendered to silence. And I was alright.

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Sometimes I hate that my hands shake when I do hard things– say hard things. I understand it’s because I am inherently soft. Maybe, sometimes, I regret the softness? Not so much regret? Am annoyed by it’s constant hovering. Having said this, I am reminded that I am the soft girl, who does the hard…

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Today the MS House and Senate voted to change the state flag, putting an end to an embarrassing representation of such a beautiful place. If I haven’t made it clear enough I’ll say it again— the South is more than what people have been made to believe. It is more than its bloodied history. It…

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I put into a motion a plan today that was executed well and had a successful outcome. Sometimes I wonder if I bit off more than I can chew. I cannot stress to you what a mouthful my professional life is. But then days like today happen and I remember.

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It’s such a confusing feeling on the days that I think about her— and want to look for her, but I don’t. I should be proud of myself, but sometimes I’m overwhelmed by the emptiness of the echo. Tonight I thought about her but reminded myself that looking for her doesn’t serve me. And if…

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