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I wrote something recently for an assignment that said to the effect, “I don’t need writing to save me any longer.” It’s been sitting heavy on my chest, stirring around in my gut. Prompting me to write this. I’ve already submitted the paper so I can’t alter it, but it’s not totally accurate. It’s not…

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Another contemplative, albeit productive day. A truth? I got caught in a web of memories, of questions, of regret. I pushed through it, am pushing through. Not allowing it to cripple me.

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Today is Mother’s Day and because I am the worst fucking person, I fiddled around and ordered my mom’s present too late, and now it won’t be delivered until tomorrow. I know that it’s going to fucking blow her mind, so it’s worth the wait, but still! Despite, my monster mistake I made sure she…

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I took the day off from everything and just rested. Tomorrow will now be hectic as I have deadlines and preparation to do for my week. But, no regrets.

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Over the past few days I’ve been feeling incredibly shaky in regards to my resolutions. I was in such a grey storm of not sadness, more guilt. More of what I have been so accustomed of feeling. I kept pushing myself– trying to remind me that this is not who I am. Not what I…

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Today I reset myself. I allowed myself to speak out loud the things that I’ve always been so ashamed of. I’m 30 now. And for the first time, in all of my life, I’m learning that I don’t have to hide the parts of me that are tough to speak on. That embarrass me. That…

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My sister joined us for dinner tonight but we all made sure to keep our distance. It was nice to sit and talk with her — which we haven’t done much of over the past few months.

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Today was probably the most productive day I’ve had a at work in weeks. It was a refreshing change from the weeks of hazy apathy that I have felt. Now, that I have some focus and am developing a plan, my energy has come back, thankfully. I’m feeling more in my element again.

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Today I finished my first round of 21 Day Fix! For as long as I have been exercising, this is such a huge accomplishment, because I never finish. I’m allowing myself the grace of being still for the rest of the day. I’ve been going hard for 3 weeks now— my body deserves to be…

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